i need this to save me.

I haven’t been on here in so long I miss it.

-scarsdonthealwhenyoukeepcutting:

Try to find the error. It’s impossible. 

AAA 
BBB 
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DDD 
EEE 
FFF 
GGG 
HHH 
III 
JJJ 
KKK 
LLL 
MMM 
NNN 
OOO 
PPP 
QQQ 
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UUU 
VVV 
WWW 
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Did you know that 80% of UCSD students could not find the error above? Repost this with the title “what’s wrong here”, and when you click “post “, the answer will be really obvious.

omg, its so easy.

(Source: sweetxbabyy)

a friend of mine died tonight. he didnt take his life, he had a seizure and just died. right on the basketball court just playin hoops with some friends. we werent tight, i know him through another friend, he was just one of the guys from a group we spent pretty much a whole summer with, he was a truly nice guy. only 19 and his life was just taken from him. i feel like so many people my age are losing their lives these days, within the past year probably around 10 kids i know, or have mutual friends with have passed away, how does that even make sense? my brother is about 8 years older than me, and for the life of me i can not remember him being 19 and having to deal with friends and peers dying around him. why is it like this now? why my generation? i’ve always truly believed that parents shouldnt bury their children, their children should bury them. 

but i say all that, and im a hypocrite, because i have thought about ending my life. just this weekend i cut, some people use this as their form of suicide, and at times like these when i know my friend could have lived a longer life and that, had he the choice, he would still be alive, i feel so selfish for sometimes not wanting my life. and then i feel even more selfish because, that is not gonna make me think twice next time i want to cut or something. i wish it would but it wont.

i feel like a horrible person.

the thing i have the hardest time doing with people, is trusting them. i used to trust very easily and because of that i was taken advantage of and broken into a million pieces on multiple occassions. so to open my heart and have trust in him has been a huge thing for me to do. but i had trust in him. the key word being had. when it is constantly tested and broken i cant help but feel betrayed. he never understands how its betrayed and that is just as much a problem as betraying it in general. 

i feel worthless. i feel like im not worthy of anyone being true to me because the one person who i thought was, just keeps walking the line of trust and keeps testing his boundaries. who does that. why do that to a person you say you love. 

it has been such a rough weekend, i cut again today.. up til yesterday i hadnt cut in months and now ive done it twice. i just feel like its a release. its just what i do now. i cant concentrate on school, i cant sleep, i cant bring myself to get up or get dressed, and then when the one person who usually makes me feel alive, crushes me .. it just all crumbles down on me. 

i cant take this anymore. i cant. i really truly cant.